Confessions. We all have them, don’t we? We’ve all messed up, dropped the ball, thought or done wrong things, or just plain embarrassed ourselves. None of us are perfect. None of us lead perfect lives.
Take me for instance. Like our first year in ministry. My husband and I literally overslept the Easter Son-rise service. I’m not kidding.
Or, what about the time I wore my swimsuit backward to the pool….all day…..when I was pregnant. Have you got that picture painted in your mind? I had bra cups on my back. Yes, the Lead Pastor’s wife at Mountain Lake completely embarrassed herself!
Yep, I could confess a lot of embarrassing moments. But, I could confess some darker issues, too. I could confess a deep need for people to like me. Most people would assume I only care what God thinks of me, but that’s not true. I care much too much if people approve of me….if they like me…..if they think that I’m good at what I do. Stuff like that can cripple me when it comes to making tough leadership decisions….causing me to worry about what people will think or how they will react. Or, it will leave me spinning when a friend chooses to leave my church. In those moments, I don’t feel Godly. I feel small and lonely.
There. I said it. I’m not perfect. I’ve done embarrassing things. I struggle with wrong thoughts and emotions. And, I do things that don’t please my Heavenly Father. I’m absolutely not perfect. Yet there’s something within many of us that wants to hide our flaws….to convince the world around us that we have it all together….to hold out an image of perfection.
I’ll hide my flaws….my failures….my sins. I’ll make excuses for them or convince myself that it’s not really that big of a deal. Sure, I may have failed to put someone else first or maybe I’ve neglected my relationship with God, but I’ve been busy doing good things! Doesn’t that count for something? Or, sure I was venting about someone else, but I needed to get it off my chest! That’s ok, right? Would you agree with me that we often makes excuses for attitudes and behavior that are plainly wrong?
Other times, we fail to even recognize that we we’re not perfect! I’ve certainly been guilty of it! I have literally sat down to pray and began by asking forgiveness for my sins….but I couldn’t think of any! I mean, I don’t commit murder, I don’t steal, I’m not having an affair….I basically have the Top Ten down, so I’m ok, right? Oh the arrogance! My temptation is to overlook character development and love for others and focus only on living an outwardly “good” life. Do you relate at all?
At Girlfriends (our women’s ministry at MLC) last week, we talked about our tendency to excuse or overlook our sin. As a matter of fact, God has something powerful to say about this topic of confession.
Isaiah 59: 1-2 “Surely the arm of the LORD is not too short to save, nor His ear too dull to hear. But your iniquities have separated you from your God; your sins have hidden His face from you, so that He will not hear.”
My God is able and capable. He can rescue me, and He listens to me. But, if I willingly choose to follow my own path and ignore Him, He will hide His face from me. In other words, He’ll leave me to my own devices….and consequences.
That’s a scary place to be.
Honest, humble confession is the solution. Confession clears the obstacles between us and God, inviting Him to once again move with power in our lives.
That’s EXACTLY where I want to be.
Have you excused or overlooked sin in your life? Don’t wait another moment. Run to God and confess! Open the pathway to Him again! Then, and only then, will He shine His face on you and listen with pleasure to your words.
James 5:16 “Confess your sins to each other and pray for each other so that you may be healed.”